how it always is
grandma: have you eaten?
me: nope.
G: eat some rice.
M: no i'm not hungry.
G: at least the fish.
M: i actually have no appetite.
G: poor fish, nobody wants to it.
M: ...
G: just the fish?
M: ...okay i'll have just the fish.
G: you want to eat rice with it?
I wish to send a few links to you but this silly tumblr would not permit me, can you trust me with your email address?
Anonymousno
Was going through your post about the death of your colleague. There is such a thing called Takotsubo cardiomyopathy, related to extreme sadness. In some cases it has actually lead to instant death. Ever wonder why a husband passed away right after his wife's death? It would not be false to say that he was killed by his broken heart. Bless you. Irfan
Anonymous“In a March 2008 study, Jaap Spreeuw and Xu Wang of the Cass Business School observed that in the year following a loved one’s death, women were more than twice as likely to die than normal, and men more than six times as likely.”
this is all very morbid, but thank you.
when i played this during one of my art classes, i didn’t expect CY to bug her aunt to teach her to play this. so when she said she had a surprise for me but i had to go to music room to hear it… it was one of the most precious thing i’ve heard, and i have it on video.
she made my lousy day beautiful.
are heartaches contagious? can sorrow seep out of a person’s skin until it drowns you?
because i cannot eat breakfast with my colleague who had just lost her father. i only have to look at her looking at me and my eyes instantly filled up. i had to apologise for my tears because it caused her eyes to well up. she did not need to tell me how heavy her heart is. i can feel it in my own heart. she did not need to tell me to love my parents, because i can hear through her silence screaming at me to love my parents.
i don’t know how she’s still functioning because i know if i were her, i wouldn’t be able to function. not for a long time. just thinking about it makes the wires in my brain shiver.
i don’t know how not to cry. i don’t know why i’m easily affected by her pain. i don’t know how her loss could feel like mine.
or maybe i do.
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I listened to the record last Wednesday on my flight to Los Angeles. Gave it one more go round before it went out into the world… one last little listen as being just mine. It’s brought me so much joy and company and peace, and I hope it will do the same for you.
JM
لَا يُكَلِّفُ اللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا لَهَا مَا كَسَبَتْ وَعَلَيْهَا مَا اكْتَسَبَتْ رَبَّنَا لَا تُؤَاخِذْنَا إِن نَّسِينَا أَوْ أَخْطَأْنَا رَبَّنَا وَلَا تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَا إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ عَلَى الَّذِينَ مِن قَبْلِنَا رَبَّنَا وَلَا تُحَمِّلْنَا مَا لَا طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِهِ وَاعْفُ عَنَّا وَاغْفِرْ لَنَا وَارْحَمْنَا أَنتَ مَوْلَانَا فَانصُرْنَا عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْكَافِرِينَ
Allah does not impose upon any soul a duty but to the extent of its ability; for it is (the benefit of) what it has earned and upon it (the evil of) what it has wrought: Our Lord! do not punish us if we forget or make a mistake; Our Lord! do not lay on us a burden as Thou didst lay on those before us, Our Lord do not impose upon us that which we have not the strength to bear; and pardon us and grant us protection and have mercy on us, Thou art our Patron, so help us against the unbelieving people.
