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…wow. thank you, for the kind words and the virtual hug.
okay i think i should be honest with myself and say why it is that i’ve not given too much thought for my future: because i don’t know. i don’t know if i’m going to get married, see, and that’s kinda like a huge factor for me.
because if i don’t find someone, my options are (to my mind) unlimited. i’ll spend the next few years growing older here, but eventually i’d most likely travel out. i’d love to live in the mountains of nepal or, if nothing’s holding me back, i want to properly learn how to photograph birds or to paint urban streets. do something that doesn’t cost much to do or doesn’t earn me much, but just enough for me to rent a space to live and enough to eat. this is if my parents have retired and my sisters are working and i can maybe move to brunei or uzbekistan and teach the children there or i don’t know…. in my heart of hearts, i want to die in mecca. if i could, i would pack up my bags right now - or maybe leave everything behind! - and fly there. there is nothing i want more than a few minutes in that mosque. thinking about this just about breaks my heart.
but if marriage is a possibility - and this is wishful thinking - if it’s in His plans and i do eventually feel like i’m ready to devote the rest of my life to this one person, who is going to determine whether or not i get to enter Jannah, then my plans are going to change drastically.
people ask too easily. “why aren’t you married yet? you can’t be choosy.” but i see it too clearly. when i get married, it’s not going to be about me anymore. it’s going to be about him. because that’s how i’m wired, i guess. i can be really intense once i’ve served my heart over to someone on a platter. i’m not a glass; i don’t break. i bend like bamboo, bend to the needs and whims of this person whom i’m going to love, respect and admire. WHICH IS NOT EASY TO FIND and which is why, at 26, i am very careful about who i’m going to bamboo for. and here my ‘planning’ stops because…
“what do you look for in a guy?” i’m looking for the father of my children. it’s not about me and what i want. it’s about if he can be the half the father my aba is to me. can he love and provide and educate and lead as well as my dad? hmmmmph. and so… how much can i plan until that happens? not very much.
…how’s that for being honest? hahahah oh god i’m tired.
i am not writing you a poem,
i could not capture you in a verse,
but i sing in my head,
a limerick instead;
this could not get any worse.
Experimental Kandinsky Type
Turkish designer, Sinan Buyukbas has created this vibrant, 3D, type tribute to Wassily Kandinsky.
Created as an experiment to explore the Russian painter’s colour and form theories, each letter is composed using Macon Cinema 4D and V-Ray.
Individually, on plinths the playful shapes can be imagined as impossible sculptures or children’s toys, while viewed together the word looks terrific.
“I have absolutely no script in my mind. I’m just going to ramble on and hope I get to the core of what this football club means.
First of all, it’s a thank you to Manchester United; not just the directors, not just the medical staff, the coaching staff, the players, the supporters, it’s all of you. You have been the most fantastic experience of my life. Thank you.
I have been very fortunate. I have been able to manage some of the greatest players in the country, let alone Manchester United. All these players today have represented this club the proper way- they have won a championship in fantastic fashion. Well done to the players.
My retirement doesn’t mean the end of my life with the club. I will now be able to enjoy watching them, rather than suffer with them. But, if you think about it, those last-minute goals, the comebacks - even the defeats are all part of this great football club of ours, so thank you for that.
I’d also like to remind you that when we had bad times here the club stood by me, all my staff stood by me, the players stood by me - your job now is to stand by your new manager. That is important.
Before I start blubbling, I just want to pay tribute to Paul Scholes, who retires today. Unbelievable, one of the greatest players this club has ever had or ever will have. Paul, we wish you a good retirement. I know you will be around to annoy me. Also, I would like to say a little word wishing Darren Fletcher a speedy comeback to our club.
The players, I wish the players every success in the future. You know how good you are, you know the jersey you’re wearing, and you know what it means to everyone here. Don’t ever let yourselves down. The expectation is always there.
I’m going home, well, I’m going inside for a while, and I want to say thank you again from all the Ferguson family, they are all up there - 11 grandchildren. Thank you.”